Why am I always the one getting blame when you in this mood? Is it fun just blaming for things I didn't do?

Times like these just makes me hate my life... And always makes me wonder if it's better just to die now then die when I'm older...

So why not.. my life can't get worse than this now.. so why not just take my life away....cause i've had enough of all these crap i'm getting for no reason at all from almost everyone...

Did I become invisible?

Because I feel like I am..

Everyone ignoring me..

Not answering msgs I've sent...

Hard work to put things together for ppl to make them happy..

Nothing happens anymore..

Friends that say we'll keep in touch but don't...

Friends that say I'll miss you when you leave but don't...

Friends that promise we will always be friends no matter what happens don't keep their promise..

Why is it that I feel like the world doesn't even know I exist anymore?

Why is it that I feel like my world is falling down?

Why is it that I feel like my life is becoming sadder by the day?

Why is it that no matter how hard I try to do anything, it never turns out the way I want it to be?

Why does it always go the opposite and turn out horribly wrong?

Am I not good enough to live in this world?

If I'm not... Why am I in this world in the first place?

have you ever thought tht maybe i dont want to stay at home all day and night? have thought tht maybe i want to go out with my friends or just going out instead of staying home all the time? do u really think i want to do chores while i can go and hang out with my friends? do u think its fun staying at home with nothing to do? why do u have to make me stay home and not let me go out.. why do u have to make me do all these things? i dont want to do any of these things anymore!!! jst let me go out!!!!!please!!!

i would even rather go out and work then stay here.. i jst want to leave this place...i dont want to stay here... i want a holiday full of fun and not jst stay home and do stupid chores!

i want out......................................................

jst needed to let off steam.. no need to worry.. i'll survive.. like i always do....

Wisdom of words?

Life has its own way for a reason but you have to know how to deal with the reasons it gives you. And choose the right paths for you happiness and the fairytale you dreamed of but be careful of the choices you make because they might cause you your life time filled with regrets.

Believe that the future world has more good things planned for you even though its giving bad things now.. You've got to believe in it before you want anything to happen.

People think that hiding away from the truth helps but it doesn't. It actually makes things worse. Better to face the truth now than run away and face it later when it's much worse.

Frens.A funny group of ppl.U find some & u lose some.Some share with u the greatest happiest moments, some share the saddest moments, some stay with u when u need them most, some just leave u when u really need them.Forget all the bad tough rough times u've with your frens, remember all the great times u've had with them & cherish all the moments u will have together in the future and all the time u have left.

Sometimes love is difficult with its ups and downs but it has its own way to suprise you. Sometimes loving someone you don't know is just like loving your own celebrity. So give love a try. :)

Where do I get all these from?!? If these are the advice I give my friends then why can't I use those advice on myself?!?

I am so confused.. =_=

I hate it when you're walking and all of the sudden you feel pairs of eyes just staring at you. When you turn around to look hoping that you're just being paranoid and you see them just staring at you and pointing at you. And walking past near them they just say your name out loud and start talking about you. The worst thing about this is that the people who are talking about you are people who you used to be so close with and you used to share so many secrets with. And now you're just scared that maybe they'll say something that you don't really want them to tell anyone. Now you're just hoping that they didn't say anything and that you can still trust them.

It's funny how we used to be so close and now we never talk even when we walk past each other we don't say hi. Sometimes I just feel like going up to you all and just talk for awhile but I'm scared. Every time I want to do that I just have that feeling in my stomach and a voice that says maybe this isn't a good idea, maybe I should just wait for a little bit longer. However I will wait a bit longer and see how it turns out then. Maybe then I would have the guts to go up to them or maybe you'll come talk to me.

I will still keep my hopes up but it won't be long until that hope has gone away and it will never come back.

I'm still the same person as I was before but maybe just a little bit more sensible, I haven't changed that much. Just give me a chance to prove that. I know it probably won't change your mind but atleast I know I gave it a try to become your friend again. We don't have to be best friends and just friends that talk a little bit when they see each other....

At first I thought it would be a great idea moving back to England because I've had enough of the half-desert life but I know that I would miss my friends.

Leaving Bahrain was not as hard as I thought it would be. I thought I would cry leaving my friends but I didn't. Its not because I wouldn't miss them, I do miss them so much, everytime going to my lessons here in England I would think of them wishing they were here. But I guess I didn't cry because deep down inside of me I know that I will see them again, maybe not in a few months but in the near future.

I thought coming back to England was going to be fun, seeing all my friends who I was so close once. But now when its actually happening its not that fun. Seeing them again its awkward, they've changed and have grown so much and I thought that most of them wouldn't have remembered me but surprisingly quite a few of them did. I have a quite a few classes with some them and I hang out with one of them everyday, walking to and from school. Some days its walking to and from school with her is quiet its probably because we still not used to each other yet, it has only been 1 week, so not much to expect yet.

In this one week of school it has been strange. First everything is different the school changed with new buildings and new systems. Then everyone changed and is different and still not used to the idea of me being back in England yet. Hopefully it will change soon but personally I don't it will because some of them pretend like they don't know me even though they do remember me. Especially those who used to be soo close with me, but I guess people do change.

I just wish every thing could be the same again just like before I left even if its only for one day. I would be satisfied. But I know it would never be the same again.

sorry... y is it tht u keep saying sorry when even its not ur fault? y do u keeping saying sorry? sorry is the word u hear most all of the sudden... is everyone in a sorry mood now or wat?

y do ppl have to make life so hard?

y cant they jst let u do things at ur own pace? at the end of the day u get good results..

u know ure not the smartest of ppl but u know ure not tht stupid either...

y does life have to be so hard? y cant it be easy?

its funny how ppl jst assume ure a strong person and nth is always wrong with u...but really u think they're wrong...

its funny how ppl think ure like an old person jst cos u say ure body hurts or have a headache...its actually not tht funny cos tht person it hurting u...

its funny how ppl jst forgets abt u when ure jst next to them...and they turn around and sees u and say 'oh..sorry' and then laugh and hugs u and thinks evrythings ok but actually they're not cos tht person jst hurt u...

its funny how some ppl have to live a lie cos evrytime ure out with sumone, ure pretending to be sumone ure not, for example ure actually hurting inside but when ure around ppl u act like there's nth wrong...and then when ure alone u let it all out..

its funny how u think tht a person is really nice and trustworthy and y tell tht person evrything- secrets but then one day u find out tht, tht person told their fren ur secrets and u can never trust tht person anymore...

its funny how some ppl talk bad abt u when ure jst rite there but they dont notice u there...and when they see u and they look at u and laugh and walks away feeling embarrass...

its funny how some ppl can jst take u for granted and never care abt ur feeling..

its funny how some ppl can jst judge u by how u look...