I hate it when you're walking and all of the sudden you feel pairs of eyes just staring at you. When you turn around to look hoping that you're just being paranoid and you see them just staring at you and pointing at you. And walking past near them they just say your name out loud and start talking about you. The worst thing about this is that the people who are talking about you are people who you used to be so close with and you used to share so many secrets with. And now you're just scared that maybe they'll say something that you don't really want them to tell anyone. Now you're just hoping that they didn't say anything and that you can still trust them.

It's funny how we used to be so close and now we never talk even when we walk past each other we don't say hi. Sometimes I just feel like going up to you all and just talk for awhile but I'm scared. Every time I want to do that I just have that feeling in my stomach and a voice that says maybe this isn't a good idea, maybe I should just wait for a little bit longer. However I will wait a bit longer and see how it turns out then. Maybe then I would have the guts to go up to them or maybe you'll come talk to me.

I will still keep my hopes up but it won't be long until that hope has gone away and it will never come back.

I'm still the same person as I was before but maybe just a little bit more sensible, I haven't changed that much. Just give me a chance to prove that. I know it probably won't change your mind but atleast I know I gave it a try to become your friend again. We don't have to be best friends and just friends that talk a little bit when they see each other....